so I finally got a new piece of poetry out. It was a good feeling to be writing again and finding a way to express myself. there definitely is something about having a creative outlet. It helps to achieve some levity for all the emotions and thoughts that stream through my heart and mind on a daily basis. I found today that after having just touched the surface of writing yesterday and just begininging again I had a better ability to really feel and live in a little bit of my emotions.

I think part of my writers block was not just the emotional blockage I have been feeling lately but also the effect of a comment i had heard awhile ago from a collegue at work. They had read some of my poetry and gave me an honest crtitique. That much of my poetry had emotional depth and ability to express how I was feeling but no actual depth from a literature perspective. That from a writing perspective there was not a multi-dimension feel to my words. I took this critique openly, as critiques can be very good ways to move forward in creating more defined and sophisticated pieces, but I think I took it and made it a structure under which I felt i had to work. There is definitely something about writing intentionally and writing not just with emotional charge--but with forethought.
But- I am a very emotional being and quite passionate in speech (as I am told by many of my friends)-- I could get passionate over cheese --emotionally percieving and expresssion is a part of how I am wired. So knowing that for me at least poetry is just another way of how I can bring that out.

So I think that although i do want to grow in sophistication in my pieces-- speaking from literature perspective-- I will let that evolve naturally. I need to be allowing my self to write--b/c if I dont write I wont develop and for right now if my writing can only happen openly if it includes aspects of my emotions than I will write in that capacity until it evolves.

just a picture into my mind as I try to write more.